Haven’t written here in some time. I’ve got to start writing again. Helps me clear my head and it’s nice to have a digital timeline of my life.
Hopefully my content won’t end up like that episode of Black Mirror, where it’s all imported into a robot that will behave and sound just like me… (creepy)
So, I started doing comedy.. something I’ve debated for some time but… realized I’m actually good at it. It doesn’t pay the bills at this time but it’s nice to get out, meet people and polish my skills.
I’m currently in a state of feeling kinda lost and found simultaneously. It’s like I know what I want and where I want to go but, the faith in holding myself together to get there is tough.
If you’ve ever had a dream, or a wish or something you desired but… not 💯 certain on if it’ll happen… that’s where I’m at.
Faith is a tough practice but, you’ve got to stick to it, learn, evolve, grow.
I figured out how to use some AI and I’m curious if it’ll help my make some 💰 on the side. I’m in a financial transition and it’s taking a toll on me. However, I am hopeful and I just keep going. I try not to think about it too much which really means I think about it all the time lol.
ChatGPT if I’ve said it correctly is quite the app/AI tool. Makes blogging easier and many other things. I’ve realized we humans just want to throw our power away to AI to free up time…So,why not give it a try?
It’s creepy, but refreshing. My challenge is seeing if I can use this to start creating some blogs I care about and selling content for websites. I feel it’s possible. Others have done it, why can’t I?
These next few days I’ll be going on a blogging spree. Waking up the sites I’ve abandoned. Like @pryceonpurpose and @pryceupcoach.
I’ll also be working on getting back to podcasting which is something I put on the back burner. That’s something I enjoy doing and sometimes I leave the things I love to pay bills 🤦🏾♀️.
Anyway, that’s my update for now… until more happens..
I’ve struggled with with question… for a long time. I still do, just not as often. I know there are others that feel this way. That doesn’t make me feel better about it.
It’s not until the great society shift that I realized how impactful my childhood was.
Imagine being reminded, repeatedly that your opinion does not matter, your wants do not matter. They have no jurisdiction in your home, where you live with the folks you didn’t choose.
Yes, they did the best they could. This I know.
Is it a blessing to come from an environment like this?
It can be. It’s all about how it’s viewed.
It’s tough to share my story. I’m not looking to bring the “I’m the hero and my caregivers are the villains…”
I’d like to let others know by sharing their story it can help them heal. It can also help others work on embracing the mindset of thriving instead of being a victim.
There’s so much we have control over in our story. It’s just that when someone has been driving for so long, and they give you the wheel, it’s kinda difficult to learn how to drive.
There are moments that arise in life when you start to work with and not against yourself.
Some may say, “Well, I’ve always worked with myself…” well, that’s great for you! Keep going!
However, there is a group of us that have moments where there is such a huge impact on what we’re willing to accept, what we’re willing to move with and even, who.
We may fight it, try to understand it or even try to deny it but it will always be so big that we can’t unsee it, or not feel it.
It’s happening for a reason. It’s the red pill or the blue pill.
Watching an episode of Home on Apple TV. If you have the ability to see this, please do so.
I love watching shows that make me think. Make me see how other people think. Stories of people taking a path that they created vs a path that was already made.
This is why I love creativity so much, it’s “beautifully risky”. As someone that used to deny themselves this gift, embracing it now is liberating and magical.
When we step outside of “the norm” we can see there is beauty already all around us. It’s so important to change and embrace change.
This is a freedom we all have and it looks different to all of us. Creating. We can create things from food, to cleaning to whatever it is, creativity lies in it.
Today, do something creative. Whatever it means to you.
It’s the moments that are the most difficult where faith is present. It’s the moments where you’re feeling doubt is where faith thrives.
I’ve come to learn that faith is a lens. It’s a moment where your mind is attached to fear, but you choose to see the light. It’s a choice to focus on the end result instead of attaching to the “what if” or “will it” moments.
With faith, you’ll always get a response. You get your answer. It just takes some time to get.
Currently watching an episode of On Purpose with Jay Shetty with Will Smith:
Something I absorbed…humans are forever interesting to me. I know I am one but I have an experience from time to time where I feel I can look outside myself so to speak.
They’re discussing how humans naturally want revenge when they feel wronged or disrespected. (Very true) which to me is a natural response but, us humans have free will. We can choose to act on it or not.
It’s funny, in some cases, I’ll express my ability to not react in certain situations since it’s just not worth my time or peace, others would perceive me as “crazy”. Now I know what their version of “crazy” means to me.
“Crazy” is not doing something someone else would do, so of course it would seem “crazy” to them. It’s not in their vision currently to behave this way.
There is not right or wrong, however there is a doing of what’s best for the person.
The great shift is here. Happening now. It’s interesting how life can change and make tiny little moves to eventually create a tidal wave of differences.
To me it was a short amount of time. Just out of nowhere but, at this point I feel it was inevitable.
I recall times where folks would mention to me how the “systems” of government, life, occupation, education and in probably more rooms that I can name… created a space of inequality for people like me (African Americans/ Black people). As we mature as a society, it seems that there is still inequality on our side but now it’s shifting like a seesaw to those that had people of their past (sometimes present) develop what was a system for “them” to grow and succeed.
Here’s the thing. I feel no matter how I say it, someone may not agree and I’m okay with that… however, I don’t feel that in this space that if we want to uplift the voices and needs of a group that we need to silence the voice of another. I believe there is room to grow and room for us all to learn and live. It’s going to come with a lot of listening and room for compassion; empathy. I don’t feel all would be on board and hey, that’s not what life is about…
I feel there are other options than what we see. However, it’s not all our fault. Revenge, as I’ve written about before is a very natural human emotion.
I’ll also add that we are making progress as well speak if you really think about it. We have a system where we can at will, see what someone or a group thinks just by the internet. The one thing that has connected us all more than we could ever imagine. The conversation is in progress and I feel we will grow from here.
Not only in the way with cultures but also..in the room of gender and sexuality, I feel we are more along than we can imagine. Yes, there are places on Earth where equality has sung songs long ago… I feel we as an American society are starting to hear the tune.
Through change there is fear.. questioning, anger and doubt… there is also understanding, growth and possibility too.
The thing is to keep going, trust the process and give your voice to the room even if you think no one is listening. Believe in your ideas and your abilities to change especially if you’re creating more understanding spaces. If you scream it from the mountain tops and no one can hear you, move to another mountain. If your voice falls to those of inaction, move to a room that takes action and never give up.
